Monday, August 25, 2008

And now for something completely different

This is a great, low-budget video by Aimee Mann, a singer/songwriter I've admired for many, many years.  She sings some of the best sad songs you will ever hear.  If her music is even marginally autobiographical then, poor girl, I don't think she has ever had a relationship that turned out well.  

As humorous as the video piece is, the song itself is poignant, expressing lyrically what many people feel as they approach the middle season of their lives:

"I thought my life would be different somehow,"
"I thought my life would be better by now."

Honestly, there are times when I feel this way, but it is usually just my episodic and passing melancholia, my small portion of "the artist's temperament."  Most of the time I am stunned at how blessed I am.  Really.

That doesn't mean that my life is perfect, or that it is what I thought it might be when I was 22 years old, looking forward.  It doesn't mean that I'm done either, ready to quit the race, cash in my chips, and relax.  Because I'm not.  But, by and large, I am content, happy with the choices I've made, and pleased with the things I've been able to do.  I've done absurdly stupid things and learned some difficult lessons the hard way, as many people do.  But mostly, I've been the beneficiary of such amazing love and consideration, such undeserved blessing.  Gratitude and humility is what I feel most of the time.  So far, I can count my regrets on one hand.

Life is interactive, and the world changes you over time.  More than you are ever going to change it, to be sure.  This is not a bad thing, and it is a true thing.  It takes 30 or 40 years before that realization starts to sink in and make some sense in a usable way.

At the moment, it looks like I will be attending my 30th high school reunion next month, Nimitz High School, Irving, Texas, class of 1978.  I hadn't planned to, but serendipitous events colluded to make it so.  It should be fun.  It will probably be strange. 

h/t Instapundit, who consistently has excellent taste in music.

1 comment:

NP said...

I like Aimee as well. She does portray a girl perpetually lost in the blues, but someone I can relate to from time to time - the "background" woman (assumption)is pretty creepy though . . .